Patrice Up Close
Patrice Gaines is an author, motivational speaker, and spiritual life coach dedicated to helping others transform their lives. Her autobiography, Laughing in the Dark, details her journey from heroin user and abused woman to award-winning journalist and good mother. She is also author of Moments of Grace, which outlines her path to change. Patrice was a reporter at the Washington Post for 16 years. She is a justice advocate and abolitionist who believes crime can be reduced without depending on the mass incarceration of human beings.
Her Story
Patrice learned “the hard way.” Instead of college, she chose heroin. It was a long and painful course. At 21, when she was a single mother, she became a convicted felon, pleading guilty to possession with intent to distribute and possession of a needle and syringe. She spent part of a summer in a Charlotte, N.C. jail and many more years imprisoned by her shame and self- hatred.
On the long climb back she was the victim of a brutal beating and more than one rape; bad marriages and abuse. But she had a praying grandmother, a cheering mother, a baby girl depending on her healing, and an indomitable spirit that longed for enlightenment.
Much of her adult life has been spent working on issues related to being a woman in a patriarchal country that consistently denies that racism and sexism exist. Today, she facilitates self-improvement workshops for women both inside and outside of prisons, at conferences and in churches. Her writing workshops turn into healing spaces. Participants leave free to write– with clarity and passion.
Patrice has taught classes and volunteered for years at the Charlotte Jail, the place where she most often sees reflections of her old self. It is her greatest desire to put the prison industrial complex out of business. Patrice believes a country that does not depend on cages to treat drug addiction or to alter the behavior of human beings will be a society in which everyone is healed from the tremendous paralyzing anxiety called “fear.”
Social Justice Advocate
At 21, Patrice was a heroin abuser. She used drugs to escape her own sense of hopelessness and worthlessness. She was arrested and became a convicted felon, pleading guilty to possession with intent to distribute and possession of a needle and syringe. She spent part of a summer in a Charlotte, N.C. jail and many more years imprisoned by her shame and self-hatred.
Over the years that followed, she fought discrimination from a society that labeled her a “criminal”, insufficient and damaged. This personal discrimination led her to become a justice advocate for others.
She has worked to change the U.S. corrections and judicial system, which overwhelmingly arrests and incarcerates Black people and poor people. Patrice uses her writing, her speeches, her teaching and speaking in prisons, as well as other volunteer efforts to advocate for change.